i think all this 'opening-up' with people has been good but also exhausting. i've been trying to remember that it's okay to trust people but it's really hard. it's also frustrating when you're improving in some parts of your life but not in others that are just as important. i always talk so vaguely on here because there's so much going on in my head and i want to get out a general feeling of all of it and then don't really get any of it out. i think, also, i've been reading really articulate bolgs lately and they're making me feel self-conscience about my own streams of consciousness.